To stand for love

To Stand for Love

I can only see my future, I have forgotten my past
I believed I had a heart, but how long did it last?
I guess I was wrong, the heart attack came fast
A concept that I found, quite hard to grasp,

To love and be loved, it never made sense
I guess you can say my heart and head were a little too dense
None of it ever had a chance, even with hopeless romantic rants
Eventually I faded into nothing but the dick in my pants
Nothing but sex on the mind, a fatal lapse in my hearts design
The late nights alone, hidden in fortresses of blankets and pillows crying
Suffocation from the darkness, who thought it would lead to me dying
Hiding deep within cavern hoods as I walk down back streets
Keeping my head down from shame and pain, only truly alive in my sheets
When I can be alone with my thoughts, with all my do's and do nots
And I'll be lying there alone, cold with my thoughts when my heart stops

And to hell I go, push the throttle all the way
I'm on a crash course to pain, I'll make it by the end of the day
And there isn't a thing you could ever do or say
To take me away from this place
It's the only place I call home, this dark place I've come to know
Come to love because its who I am, my home is the poem
I guess I can love again
Though its not that happy warm feeling we all think of at first
Its more of a dehydrated feeling, I'm dying of thirst
But its what's closest to me, this feeling so empty
With every happy memory and feeling neglected but tempting
To go lock myself up, knock myself up,

We'll I watch myself fade ever day, the mirror grows blurry
My life is wasting away and its going in a hurry
So don't look back to see me, forget the sweet me
Its hunger and darkness, thirst and toughness
Block the world out, cut myself out, search for what the worlds about
And if I find nothing you'll be sure to hear my minds looming doubts
And as I stand before you all and let out the mighty shout
"I stood for nothing, in a world gone wrong
I wrote a pointless novel, and a loveless song
I saw the world for what it truly is not
But I know in the end,
We'll all be buried and rot."