emptyness fulfillment

lost in cause
and prone to wander.
wanting peace.
things will be better.

just this day in which i am
all i have to give
shall i stay motionless?
who shall i serve with emptiness at hand?

what if they were back from war
would i serve less or more
shall i continue to strive in this yearn
or shall i get up with nerve?
when she returns will she welcome me back in?
or will she distance herself once again?
it is still 10 days till she arrives,
i won't even see her then.
her love has come to sweep her off her feet,
once again thier lips will meet.
am i upset?
i preferr to think not. my lover is within.
i am fooling myself on that sometimes he tells me and it is true.
when it is all said and done
we will probaly be through.

am i a surgeon with the ability to sew?
i think so.
i need a surgeon to help me help them.
will she let me back in? i think not
i deserve what i got.
NOTHING.

i should have more faith than i do
will i ever come to?
i thought i was delivered from this land of lust
love to love
dust to dust
faith to faith
glory to glory

it's just the beginning of my beautiful story.

loving you from the heart
pure and true
but be careful
it fools me too.
love you
~teddi