The Worst Thing

He gripped my wrists and pulled me close
He looked into my eyes and his words he carefully chose
I tilted my head and wandered what was wrong
His body was warm and he acted as if this wasn't where he belonged

He ran his fingers through my hair
And his smile was that of a hurt that was rare
He spoke in a whisper in my ear
And his words were worse than i'd ever fear

"I want you to find the perfect guy,
Someone that is perfect for you, and nice,
I don't want you to be hurting when i'm gone
And just know i'll be thinking of you all along"

"I don't want to find anyone else"
My tears ran down my cheeks as i whispered to the one i felt
In front of me he pushed my kiss away
And told me he doesn't want me to be alone until i see him again

No one knows how much it hurt
To hear the one i love say the reverse
To be pushed away from the one i love
Even when he knows he will be the only one i'm thinking of

I don't want to find a nice guy that isn't him
Because no one else can give me the smiles i shared with my hand in his
My dad doesn't care that i just wanted to save myself
From being pained by someone else

I want to cry more than anything in the world
Because i'm hurting from the loss of my sweet loving hero
My best friend and my life
I guess it was the best and worst time....