Holding On

I'm still holding onto you,
Isn't that what I'm supposed to do?
I miss you so much,
And I miss your loving touch.

Your gentle hand that caught my tears,
Your soothing voice that calmed my fears.
The woman who knew everything,
My mother with beautiful wings.

There's so much you've missed,
And so many scars left unkissed.
I'm so confused still.
And now I feel ill.

The heartache, the suffering I feel.
Wishing this was a nightmare and not real.
Could you please come back?
Living with you has caused my heart to crack.

It's just not fair to me.
Now who am I supposed to be?
You've left me and dad,
And it's hard not to be sad.

No one can say they understand
You can't mend a heart made of sand.
No one knows why my heart aches.
And why from dreadful slumbers I do awake.