Goodbye, Dad

Goodbye, Dad


It’s been so many years ago,


Yet I’ve held on to this pain.


My heart has never fully,


Stopped drowning from the rain.


I’ve nurtured the tenderness,


Kept my emotions on the brink.


I never searched for closure,


That I knew I should seek.


Like an open wound without treatment,


I never fully healed.


I never cast my feelings,


Into some open field.


I never said goodbye,


Wouldn’t consciously let go.


I wouldn’t allow acceptance,


To have a chance to grow.


But I’m growing older and wiser,


Therefore I must allow myself to deal.


With all of the emotions,


That daily I still feel.


I must learn to celebrate your life,


Concentrate less on your death.


And give my sobbing heart,


A little more time to rest.


So for this coming season,


I’m going to say goodbye.


Not of your memory,


But the things that made me cry.


The hurt and the pain,


The bruise of my heart.


I’m finally letting go,


And making a new start.