come tear me apart again

Come tear me apart once again
come into my life and break me down
just like you always do
fill me up with your stupid lies
you’ve never told me the truth
I’m almost 18 now
and where’ve you been at
anywhere but here
with me , your daughter
your own flesh and blood
you never were a father to me
something or someone else
was always more important than me
how come you came back into my life
do you think
telling me that you love me
is gonna change the past
you never came and saw me
were you just to sacred
scared of what I would think
sacred of Tim
scared of mom
scared of the stupid cops
I just don;’t understand
what did I do to you
to make you hate me
I blame myyself
for not being your “perfect little boy”
I guess William got lucky
he knows his father
I don’t know mine
now you write me from a jail cell
telling me how much you miss me
and how much you love me
but how can you love someone
if you don’t know them
how can you miss someone
if you never missed them before
so why do you miss me now
is it because your realizing
just how much you hurt me
is it because your realizing
just how many lies you told me
is it because your just now realizing
I am your daughter
and that will never change
I don’t care if you have a tattoo
of my name on your chest
it still doesn’t change
the way you hurt me
I grew up with an abusive step dad
and without my father
the father that I needed
so many times
a father who never really cared
I don’t care if you change or not
you are my father
and I will always love you
tho I bearly know who you are
tho you were never there for me
tho you hurt me
with all your stupid lies
I’ll still love you