Nothing To You

For what am I dead?

Am I the leaves on the ground?

Am I the sun in the sky?

Am I the wind blowing through the trees?

No for not one soul would care

No difference have I made

Nothingness of this soul

For I wait for that one answer

My heart beats fast with the silence

I cannot be her, I cannot be anyone but me

If I tried, I would be fake,unathentic

I am not special anyways

Should I try?

No for it is me, trying is a failure

Let go, its not worth it

I see you, tears fall through my veins

Yet my eyes dry with hate

Hate that I cannot bear within this body

I am alone, not you, for you could care less

It's what you want, What you WANT

Not the needs of others-

Love you say so freely

Yet you take it away for your self centerness

Leave for I can no longer do with you

Go think of yourself, cause my heart doesn't matter

Peices to small to even matter you left my heart in

Mending cannot be endured by these peices

Just leave and do not look at what you done

For looking makes no difference

I should deserve better

I don't

But for being with you- I rather be alone

You take your heart I supposedly had

Leave for I mean nothing

Leave for you mean the world to yourself

Leave I make no difference

Gone, I will perrish as the nothingness I was

As the nothingness you made me become

I was never alive, always dead

Dead I will remain

Dead I cannot depart