Thoughts of Marraige and Vows

I wish i could have someone here with me... to embrace me to stare into me... to hold eachother's warm hands...and to make our life's plans... the thoughts of marraige and vows... but look at me i've been single for a long time now... if i ever do get married, in my elder years i would rather shed tears for my dead wife then die alone in love which just isn't right... loving someone that can care less about you... i at least know the feelings she showed to me before were not true.