Think or drink

Wake up in the morning and something feels fine
My usual bad feelings are not on my mind
I don’t feel as low as I have done in past
I don’t know what’s changed but I hope it will last
My thoughts are more natural and flow by themselves
My fears have been packed up and placed on the shelves
I shouldn’t obsess or I’ll bring back last week,
Last month and last year, as it’s been quite a streak
I’ll focus on good that is stirring inside
I’ll keep myself busy and try to steer wide
Turn on the T.V but the first thing I spy
Is a man who is sharing a problem like mine
Switch over the channel again and again
Waiting for something I like to begin
It’s clearly not working, I’ll turn to a book
Read page after page and can’t find a hook
Negative feelings are starting to rise
Can’t turn them away whatever I try
I open the fridge to see what to serve
And pull out a beer to settle my nerves
Beer turns to spirits and then on to wine
And when that’s all finished whatever I find
I’ve run out of drinks so I look at the clock
I’m still in good time to run to the shop
I stumble down stairs and out of the door
And head down the road in search of a store
A woman is looking a look of despair
She’s judged me and I just don’t see that as fair
My story is different and very entwined
Where is that shop that I’m trying to find?
They sell that good whiskey that makes me feel good
It makes me forget why I’m in a bad mood
I trip on the step that leads in to the store
Try to cling on but end up on the floor
People rush over to see how I am
I push them away as I’m trying to stand
Embarrassment forces my anger aside
I thank all the passers ensuring I’m fine
I walk to the counter and purchase my drink
The one that stops me from having to think
I swig all the way on the route to my home
Content on the way to have a good moan
The rest of the day begins to be blurred
All I remember is my talking was slurred
Wake up in the morning and something feels fine
My usual bad feelings are not on my mind......