Warning: Love Causes Insomnia

Every night is the same
Lying there thinking
Dreaming before I'm asleep
Floating through my hopeful thoughts
Trying to push the bad ones away

Playing it out in my mind
How it'll be for us
How you'll be...and see me
Hoping you'll smile, not say it was a waste
Let's not let the silence be too heavy

Will you tell me that the feelings are gone now?
Face to face, no way to make me quiet now
No button to click me away now
Scared that I won't be the same girl that you pictured
Will I be too real for you now?

And I wonder if I'm crazy
Do I obsess about you?
And are these thoughts normal
Or am I different
Just like everyone else is?

And I ask, why can't I stop worrying?
And just look forward happily
To the sweet times we can have
Those insignificant moments you talk about
At the supermarket or watching tv...together

But the shock suddenly hits me
The panic kicks in, every time
Like a cold hand around my heart
For a second I can't breathe
And in that next minute I realise

Maybe we'll never get the chance
To make those insignificant moments
Significant moments, just for us
And before my mind can stop and rest
I pray to a God in whom I don't believe