When you thought love was when it wasn't ... |
I stared at you often in class, and I figured you for Native American. How very much the risqué daughter of Japan you turned out to be. I would watch you walk to the front of the class, intoxicated by your lithe body. I listened to your poems that scared and fascinated audiences, surprising all that were in earshot. Yet, who knew so much brewed under that cool way and voice, throaty and full of your quiet, sexual tenacity? * * * * * Chance placed us in same workgroup during charming May and me closer to you. You admired my runes of past loves, seeing in those words seemingly genuine passion. You became Venus embodied in my spellbound mind. A strategic carlift to the furthest Trax station revealed the shambles your home life lay in: Infidelity, insensitivity and incompatibility were the ingredients that spoiled a relationship left simmering too long. The unrepentant tendrils of your tales of infidelity is what piqued my desire for you, and the domineering way of your husband appealed to my hopeless heart. I was laid open by a double edged sword, my pursuit would no be hindered by no one. Not even you. * * * * * I finally conjured the courage, To ask you out Although you were still bound To the laws of matrimony, but readily you obliged. We would find ourselves In nowhere particularly spectacular, like the bowels of Union building or traipsing down the tree-lined paths of the campus. However, dulcet lines of poetry were scrawled in each other’s notebook, borne of exultant sentiments stirring in our hearts: One, a redoubt housing pain yet needing redemption, the other, a gyre where lust and love swirled tumultuously. * * * * * During an ensorcelled evening that found us lounged in the leather-loaded lair of my Lincoln, I finally opined for your soul, the Scorpio rising in my thirsty heart. Not willing to relent, you laid out the bare essentials of your state; Finding solace in another was actually finding the devil in his den, not in your cards at the time. I would need to house my riotous heart in patience, and give yours, calamitous, time to heal. But your words were transformed, in my minds eye. I envisioned nights of fierce coition, forging into ardent romance… I would make my own rules… I was going full bare in. * * * * * I knew that rouse to you from reality, I had to take you at your own game. I drank from you, urgently, purposely, and you were my wildest dreams: Match for match, point for point, you could satisfy. I thought I would use this utopia of desire to thrust my way into your heart. I had you cornered into my trap or so I thought.. Under late summer nights, you were receptive to me and my fun, but not in heart and soul. My brobdingnagian scheme of entrapment was progressing slowly, and I was despondent. Resorting to devious measures I threatened to find solace in the arms of another I did not have. ever resourceful, yet umbrageous you would not be pulled in. Another player entered the game, and quickly decimated my err riddled efforts. Feigning that my heart had since quit the foray, it was left bereft, and yours found itself reluctantly appeased. Your new foray developed quickly, I daresay as fast as I would have liked us to have culminated. * * * * * I saw you one last time, your face had the look of the game show host who presents the runner up with the consolation prize. |