abandoned princess

Yesterday my mum asked me about marriage.I was kind of taken aback ! she stills believe me or one can say cares for my opinion after i have made a horrible mistake while chosing a guy who jilted me  because his mother didnt like me. all i could manage to ask, " Had you asked your mother when u proposed me at first place?"
i tried to commited suicide and when he phoned me up this is all what he said, "this is your problem if you cant live without me .Don't involve me in your all this crap." I made a come back not to show him, with firm decisions to come out of depression or nostalgic feelings that places or any couple with holding hands were  giving me.

after the fiasco of my first love, i again fall into love with another boy. I asked him would you think your mother  agree with our relation as we belong to two different communities? his answered," he would try to convince his mother. " i called off the relationship.

it is strange for me that i could not find a single "Man " for me. i am damn praticle i know there is no such phenomenon like prince charming on white horse exists.. but what i was wanted a man with backbone, with real guts and i told the same to my mother.i told her that they think some good inches of F****** P**** make them man but girls beg to differ sometimes.

P.S.
this is an excerpt from my short stories. I knoe i have used some abusve words, i apologize but i did n't want to use any euphemism here. it is a story with an indian perspective and ambience.