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Poems by DNC Stevens |
Apartments Poems by DNC Stevens Copyright 2007, DNC Stevens The Grasshopper I press the joints of his hind legs together because It gives me more control. My soiled fingers feel it Straining against the press without success. Four front legs flail mechanically like a monster In a B movie and I think of the power I have over it. Antennae whip like broken wiper blades flipping Madly off the windshield to no effect. Between his jaws grows a beard of saliva And it looks like tobacco juice. Straining again to hinge its hind hoppers I feel it again strive to regain freedom But I am in control and it is my victim. Things like mercy and justice do not enter My young mind; mercy is something that applies Only to me at my age and justice is Unimaginable because my parents control Me like I control these hind legs. It feels good To have something under my control for a change. It cocks a goat-shaped head and I imagine The plethora of me it sees in its faceted eye And I suddenly feel awkward having captured Him. But I don’t know why. I heave him skyward and he zig-zags unpredictably Down into dry late-summer weeds. Variations on a Poem by Donald Justice I will die in Miami in the sun . . . I will die on the Iron Range in the snow, when it is like fallout In a movie I remember about the end of the world. There will be an early autumn snow and I, quite unprepared, Will involuntarily entwine myself with the precipitant freeze. My private campsite fills with the flurry of flakes And my dog, seeing me quiver because of the cold, Will look at me and understand perfectly. Surviving cousins, wrapped in their thick robes and sitting On obese chairs, will read of it in the papers. “Senseless,” They will say—and they will be right. Dawn finds me in late Spring on a day like today; The cool rain falls and slowly melts the winter’s snow pack. The icy embrace of the early autumn snow is mostly gone, And my body, preserved all winter, is lost far from trails. Its scent grows more powerful outside the grave, And the wind wafts the odor, mingled with the scent of the pines. Carrion eaters will read the air and follow for their next meal Bears smell it and, stunned by agitation, stop in their tracks At first they sniff to identify the odor, Then turn abruptly, out of respect. DNC Stevens is dead. One Saturday, when the sun was out, A procession of vultures descended slowly. They are like Mourners at a funeral, appearing forlorn, but Thinking of all the finger sandwiches available after the funeral. And when the sandwiches gone, they will go their separate ways. A few years later some hikers will leave the trail to camp And see bones, strewn and sun-bleached On the red-brown dirt of the Iron Range. “Some animal,” They will say—and they will be right. On the Disappearance of Mark Cooper Mark Cooper and I sat and stared at the sky in the summer of ’85. Talking Physics and God, watching girls on the quad walking by like we weren’t alive. We would listen to tunes while the freaks and goons drank their vodka and J.D. And the Beastie Boys were the background noise as we thought how it might be. Remember New Orleans and those girls in blue jeans drinking hurricanes galore. Drove down to the Square sucked the midnight air into our bodies though every pore. And the little real jazz the Crescent City has found its way into our ears. We just sat there all night thinking that we just might rise above our deepest fears. Mark Cooper and I never did say goodbye in the summer of ’95. He left without a word; no one has seen or heard whether Mark is dead or alive. If he didn’t belong or if I’d done him wrong I guess it wouldn’t be so bad. But he’d just had enough; that’s what makes it so tough losing the best friend I ever had While the rhythms were Brazilian and the words were Japanese Matte kudasai, be patient, but the spirit disagrees. If I’d known you’d leave forever, I’d have something more to say But the only words I think of come from records that I can’t play. Portrait of a Rancher This is no subject for a poem: Christ Couldn’t save this man from the land Or vice-versa. Sure The sun sets just like the end of a western movie. Somewhere there is a coyote howling at the moon, but Here on this ranch there is nothing But security. Boring. No subject. The fence he built perimetering the ranch with two layers of chicken wire. It is buried two-and-a-half feet deep: No canine would attempt to dig that. There are white-washed buildings With piped-in water And electricity and I swear There’s a brass hook for a ragged pith helmet. The animals on this ranch know No fear of death, but the rancher Slides his brown leather shoes Through the dust. The wind lifts And he shields his eyes— But this is no subject for a poem And I know that he will sleep long Before this ranch does. Room 2580, 3:13 AM The ex-pharmacist lies On the bed in the otherwise Peace of the early morning. He is rigid; his hands That used to count pills Grasp the steel bars around his bed That keep his body from falling. His mind, Used to counting pills, Must be seething like a jacuzzi Because his eyes move beneath their lids Like two snakes, trapped in bags. He takes a long breath and speaks: “A E A E E I E I B I B I belong To you U E U E I E I . . .” He pronounces each letter With the precision of a pill-counter. And standing nearby is the pretty nurse. Peaceful As this early morning she says “here, Take this.” The ex-pharmacist, Used to counting pills, Takes the pill on his tongue And without the aid of water, Swallows. He takes another deep breath And resumes the litany “O E O E I U A O E I E I belong To you E U E U . . . The non-chalance of the pretty nurse Is evident when she says “he’s CTH. Crazier Than Hell. He won’t remember Any of this.” I will. Apartments I walk into my apartment and hear it Drone with the hum Of intricate motors—all maintaining An atmosphere for me. I walk into my bedroom to see my clothes Piled on the covers of my bed. Pictures hang like familiars Above the clutter on the floor And the nightstand and the desk. My telephone is off the hook—the receiver Lies upside-down like a beetle on its back. Is this place mine? If I left it tonight It would not change. I can turn out The lights, lock the door, leave this place. I can walk outside and imagine The earth is an apartment with an atmosphere It sails like an old ship as it drifts Into familiar waters Meditation in the Celestial Room --With apologies to Robert Hass Guilt is in everyone, though most refuse to see it. This is the old idea of pride. For example— Pride makes me forget The weeks past sins when the sacrament tray Passes to me. In the same way, The Lamanites justified murder with an old Lie about a birthright. I think I am some tragic sinner far removed From my spirit. Even David had no other flaw Than the bramble of Bathsheba, A name that symbolizes compromise. I took the vows again tonight and in my voice There was a wavering commitment, a tone Almost blasphemous. Acting this way, Everything enthralls: pride, Lust, hate, envy. There is a person I love more than God and in holding him I feel a violent comfort in everything. I buy him a couch, a car, a stereo. I take what I want because he has Everything to do with me. His longing, I say, is desire filled With endless distances. Always my body, my desires as numerous As Lamanites, and the flesh searching For compromise in the evenings, Calling Bathsheba, Bathsheba, Bathsheba. |