Why do you do this?

Unhappiness:
When Happiness was finally a word I was getting used to.
When life was finally making sense.
When it was just you and me and nothing else mattered.
Then (like you love to say) BAM!

It hit me like a ton of bricks...
I didn't even see it coming.
Blind-sited by utter confusion.
The truth eludes me so much it hurts.

What is the truth?
Did you turn it all on me to escape from the blame?
Did you really do it to find out what I was doing?
I don't really understand why it even matters...

A ball of water wells up in my eyes,
there's no more room.
I can't take it anymore.
I can't hold on any longer.

Cascading down my face is one single tear.
It leaves a trail behind, a small wet trail,
A black, makeup streaked trail.
I try to brush it away.

It is quickly followed by others, just like it.
Soon, my face is a river of tears.
I try not to drown in them,
I try to escape my pain,
I try to evade the darkness that I have just entered into...

But I have no idea what to do.
I don't know what's to come.
I don't know what's going on.

Is this it?
Is this what the end looks like?

I beg, I plead, I apologize as if I'm the only one who's done any wrong.
You turn your head.
You don't hear my cries.
You're numb to my pain.

I don't understand.
How can you say you love someone and purposefully hurt them?
How can you want to be with someone but look to all others as well, just in case?
And why do you lie?

I FUCKING LOVE YOU!
WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?