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What happends when the love you give to
a person isn't enough for them and
they simply reject you because of what you seem to be?
After ALL the fucking things you've done for them,
or the things you WOULD do for them, they simply turn you
down over a small little thing you want them to be apart
in your life of. As much as they are already,
you know they are your second life time partner, but even
then, through this life, you want that little thing about them before
the third person interfers, but they just won't give it to you all
because of what you seem to be.
You will never be enough for that person and as much as you
keep trying, you STILL won't be enough.
Give up, give up now.
There's no hope, there won't be hope for a second try.
All they know is 'I can't wait to find that true love of mine, oh yes.'
While your here damn well waiting for that person to turn around and give you
a chance. But it's simply funny to think about it, because it doesn't matter
for them how long you wait, they'll be itching to start their own life without
you. In this life you've got nothing else anymore. With that one and
only wish that you wished upon to a star, it was a fake, and it so seems the
person you love is a fake. Behind beautiful eyes and that sweet smile
they obtain, they truly don't want you. And even then,
now you wonder if having them for a partner in the next life it'll be like this.
Because it all comes down, that what you will be in that life,
your partner will be the same as you are in this life. It hurts so much.
So much you just want to RIP your own heart out and feel no more.
You want to vanish from this world that's caused you so much pain, so much misery, so much hate. All you ever wanted was to spend your life eternly with that
person, and so you thought it would work. However taking the step to a simple
question, led to no where. And your mind is filled with your own
questions I can simply answer you. In reality,
you are Alone. The dreams you have,
are Fake. Just like a past love life you had, it seems like it's all being
repeated and it damn well hurts so much. So now you
have nothing, no love to give, no one to trust.
It's amazing what love can do to you, not only this, but also give
you thoughts you thought would never return. Love songs you've
searched to give to this person, only to simply see them
as a mere dedication, when you really wanted them to
see how far you'd go for them and not once ever CARE for what they were.
So now, you've written the date you wish to go.
Even if it doesn't occur, with these two hands it could be done.
Life, and life in this world with that loved one had only been a dream.
And who knows how many years it'll be, but saying farewell to
this painful heart and world, is the most desired thing,
I really want right now.