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The spawnings of a bad day |
So spread your wings of broken dreams lose yourself to the hopes the dreams the wishes of past memories that fade trusts that lack Begin to feel the weight weight of the world on your shoulders no one there to take it away no one there to help you no one there a silence that splits the senses a dream that shatters reality pain that dosn't take away my grim thoughts Pain of a blinding light pain the colour of purple burning veins with a single set of three words I love you -------------------------------------------------------------- Monsterface Cant seem to fathem the idea of someone caring loving me believing in me i have to wonder how and if thats not easily answered then why? why care for a monster like me? why care for this unloveable thing i am i cant understand you. cant wrap my head around how you feel. an out of this world decision it is unreal to me that someone as amazing as you can care can smile can look at me and say I love you -----------------------------------------------------> I watched that sunset yesterday couldnt get you out of my head. i miss you i need you you make me whole you care it suprises me i'm facinated i hurt you i feel bad keep replaying all my mistakes your special to me you healed me when i had shattered into a thousand peices please dont leave me? i need you for everything ghosts of a past you float around my head i cant get you out you confuse i geuss i'm just waiting waiting for my luck to run out to just drop and not rise not have to see the dawn of a new day not to face the fake smiles just let my shell crack kill me a thousand peices leave me im waiting for it its going to come it always does someday youll realize im a monster a mess that im not worth it and i never will be one day youll realize that there are to many missing peices --------------------------------------------> I keep sitting here waiting for you to look at me and realize just what a mess i am i'm waiting for you to say goodbye its inevitable everyone does it i'll miss you when your gone but if it makes you happy leave my shattered heart behind and find a way to happier times i'll take it to heart i know i cant be loved a fucking monster not worth the breath theres no other words im a fucking monster destroyed myself a timebomb left in my pocked explode slowly killing me Everything About You cant stop to think not now only pain ill write untill the end of the age if it means i wont cry wont feel that burning hole where my heart should be every thing is a god damned mistake im a mistake save yourself from my insanity you dont need my pain you have your own just leave me here between my dim and dark ill lose myself soon enough a broken shell nothing left nothing but the shattered peices of my soul. -----------------------------------------------------------------> Its ten somthing im sitting here the smell of your skin still sweet on my shoulder time dosnt really matter listening to everything changing wondering if i did turn back time went back to correct my mistakes fix those things i shouldnt have done would i? they brought me to where i am and i like it here but would it be better if i wasnt? would you be better without me i dont care about my health i know im not okay but what about you? wouldnt you be better without this mess without my tears my pain me? Ive risen on my wings of broken dreams go ahead shatter them let me fall your better without me go be happy thats all i care about thats all i need ill go on ill smile say please and thankyou but without you im lost ------------------------------------------------> a bit of poetry spawned from a bad day hope you liked it!! Some Poetry Kym wrote at camp and refused to let anyone read...it's pretty!! ~Drayen ~A moon dance~ The moon hangs high In this midnight sky A beautiful golden sight Basking in a silver light Lost in your arms, A warm embrace. ~Damn, I love you~ Your eyes shine And capture mine Your smile glows And these words flow Your hand holds my heart I know we'll never part Wow, who knew That I love you How to describe affection? The way you kiss my nose And the way the headlights of cars make your eyes glow Before your lips grace mine. The way our hands join in an intricate puzzle that seems to never end A golden moon above A fallen star Held in the arms Of a lost Angel. 12:00 A blessed hour The hour of nothingness The hour that doesn't exist Take a deep breath, One minute left 1 AM Try again To late now My hour is gone Breathe in The scent of a New day A best friend How to describe The feelings He's amazing Everything He cares He's there How? Why? What did I do to deserve this? I didn't Then Why? Broken reflections In a trash can lid Swirling my face Into an unrecognizable Design Nothing Compared to that mindless Idea Why do I look like this So ugly So unwanted I wish I could fade away To be as invisible As unrecognizable As my reflection In that old Dented Trash can lid. Small figurines In a forest of green Lost in the vines Inside these lines Hides a secret Can you find it? Can you light it? Find my lost voice Return my smile. Reward: my world. Books A separate world A new idea A place of peace A generous lease Thank you For this Book. Paper Pencil A new release A new found trust A new best friend They don't betray They won't hurt With them I am safe Why I write? I write cause I can I write cause they told me I couldn't I write cause that tangy sunset puts words in my mouth I write cause he wants to read I write cause I can express myself I write cause the moon is an intoxicating golden silver I write cause the fuckin' raven told me to I write cause the fruit loops that float in the milk create interesting poems I write cause I married the pen and paper I write cause banana pancakes really do exist I write cause I'm hot, you can't cause you not I write cause the honeysuckle plants cast wars against my nose I write cause pollen assaults my head I write cause writer's block is a bitch once a month I write cause I was fascinated one day, by the blue and red lines that limit me I write cause how else am I supposed to remember those dreams? I write cause I love how the ink swirls when I soak the page with to much I write cause I want to I write cause my teachers thought they could control everything I write cause he is an over protective bastard I write cause I need to free my mind I write cause its natural I write cause I have nothing better to do at 1:30 in the morning I write cause I was inspired I write cause I wanted to watch the sun rise I write cause I wanted to describe its perfect glow I write cause I wanted to show you my feelings I write cause I know you'll never read it I write cause then I can hide I write cause it hides me I write cause I can trust my paper I write cause its what I love I write cause you told me I write cause I can I remember I remember your smile I remember your eyes I remember the way you looked at me I remember your hair I remember how the sun makes it glow like a halo I remember that I know I should deserve you I remember the perfect nights of lying in the grass, watching the stars I remember that look, like it was just for me I remember late night SVU marathons! I remember the cakes I remember banana pancakes I remember 3AM phone calls I remember every word you said I remember the sharpie wars I remember the way time flies when we're together, how it slows when we're apart I remember the way you kissed my nose I remember how the streetlights looked in your eyes I remember how your lips graced mine I remember how our hands join in intricate puzzles I remember 2AM emotional breakdowns I remember how you're always there I remember how you forgot to say bye, and called back just say it I remember the endless txts with 's I remember super salt and vinegar chips I remember butterflies I remember so far away by Nickleback I remember seeing only you I remember being so damn nervous I hyperventilated. I remember everything about you...actually I don't remember anything; all I remember is when you hugged me and said: so, movie on Friday? I remember every time I smiled, no, I remember the one time I tried to stop....then realized I couldn't I remember you... damn I miss you |