I'll never admit i need you...

I'll never admit I need you.
I'll never admit I care.
I'll deny that you ever cross my mind.
Or at the darkest hour of the night, I'm missing you.
I'll never tell you I love you and want you to love me to.
I'll never let my defenses down, long enough to show such a display of weakness.
I'll battle all feelings I have for you and my desire to let you know.
For I am afraid to lose you, If I ever let you know.
So I'll spin a lie to trap these thoughts.
I'll tell myself it isn't real; these thoughts are make believe.
Storywriters are always writing about it so it can't be real.
Eventually all thoughts of romance will be washed from my mind.
Eventually I'll come to believe that love...is a lie.
Becoming deaf to the cries of my buried heart.