Just out of Reach

Just out of Reach

I don’t know why it’s so hard to find someone like you,
Who I can trust, talk to, and lean on: when blue.
Sometimes I have come close, but then you fade away
Like some shrouded thing and its here I stay.

In this place, of not knowing when that moment will come.
I count the long years slowly, pinkie to thumb.
What is it about you that’s always just beyond my reach?
What mysteries and parables do you have to reveal and teach?

It’s in your shadow that at the moment I eagerly and patiently watch
It’s in my minds eye that you develop, and I get just a swatch,
A snapshot of what it is that I crave for you to be
And I realise now that you are just make believe, I see

Me, I see my dad, and all the great influences of my life,
I see my children adore me, and feel the warm embrace of my wife.
So what has all this been about, this great longing, this ache inside?
I saw that I had waited for part of myself to catch up, that spirit beside

Which I now stand, shroud removed: and a face I know revealed.
It was my twin, the other part of my Self that had long concealed
His identity. You see I had forged on ahead in the game, not taking note
To learn from mistakes, right my wrong’s, and I had created around myself this moat

Which As I stood transfixed, had all dried away, in that moment of coming to be
Realising where I had gone wrong, and left behind the very essence of that which was me.
This is what I had craved, my soul had stayed its course, not wavered from the path
And had stayed just out of my reach, while I thought I knew best and stupidly did laugh

In the face of it, a loud exaggerated cackle at times a defiant stand I took.
And I saw clearly now the reasons why, about it I’m now an open book
You see I had stopped in my tracks when the cross got too much to bear
I actually took the time to listen and understand and really care.

It was then that self aligned with Self, I had caught up,
And it felt so good like a kid with a playful pup.
So take heed, live life, but ease the pace
Learn. Love, live and forget the race.

By R Paris