My shadow appears to me in my dreams Can’t seem to defeat the darkness that exudes me I weaken Images committing murderous thoughts From within Over & over Setting itself up to Sin yet again Fully loaded The demons are revealed I tremor My shadow appears to me in my dreams Exfoliating my other skin Replenishing me into a new woman Inner being remains the same Replaying the same dream Pressing rewind It’s engraved in my mind Clouds rapidly gathering Darkness prevails Struck by lightning All hail Words clashing Through my brain Causing massive cerebral pain I lose thought Slipping into a coma Still going insane I can’t seem to grasp this love concept thing On a mission of self destruction Exposing my thoughts to Faceless strangers I black out Shadows coming from all angles Devouring my soul My shadow appears to me in my dreams To express this demeans my personality Searching for an outlet Allowing nano-seconds of relief Through the stroke of my pen I give thanks to those Listening to me grieve My shadow appears to me in my dreams Trying to avoid this is a task Many sleepless nights Tossing & turning Even dimming the lights Drowning on tear stained pillows Body immobile Frightens me Setting my alarm to rock to Hip hop and R&B Half past every hour Which seems like an eternity Especially when your shadow is Noddin it’s head to The lyrics of Jodeci I see images of hooded men Brandishing hooked hatchets I know this sounds rancid I’m just letting out some of that acid That’s built up in my esophagus from all the Bullshit I’ve passed with If it were meant for me to be blessed These demons I could put to rest I must contest the severity of My anguished mind Blood thirsty venomous snakes Seepin through my mattress Puncturing even more hatred Into a soul that only exists in my thought stream Heavily sedated Gone |