Own way to be

Own way to be
         
So many troubles surround me          
and I hope I will find a way to be          
sometimes.....somehow....with someone          
so far away, it seems to me so far ...
so hard, so complicated, so useless          
so hopeless.......and I feel          
something real inside          
but I don´t know...is it right?          
Awakened from crying,          
saving from dying.          
It´s that what I should do now.          
But this feelings seperated me from my horse sense          
and I feel I will never be able to understand          
something in between          
the feelings and dreams.          
Undecided...          
what should I feel?          
These feelings just can´t be define.          
It´s deep within my mind.          
Undercovered....unheard...unspoken.          
How should I spend          
time that is still there?          
but still go on and on.          
is this hopeful song?          
Kness is the place          
where I am today.          
No more doubts...no signs          
I should find my own lines.          
My only way to be.
Accept what I feel.          
I´m sincere and deeply honest          
with everything I am          
and I´ll ever be.          
Crying without tears          
is what you´ve never seen.          
But heart  really can cry          
even so eyes smile...          
but it´s just a game          
how to hide deep pain.