A tribute to a shortlived whirlwind relationship |
My Addiction to You Too much too soon We went way too fast Overkill ended up killing us Assisted by demons in our past We should have known better We’d slow down until we’d hug But every time we were together I was the addict and you were the drug You were the crack to my vacant soul I couldn’t get enough of you Always leaving me wanting more And the control it gave you grew I did something I never intended I gave you all my power The core of myself began to evaporate Still I pleaded for just one more hour One more phone call, one more laugh This unhealthy addiction continued to flourish The fear inside me growing stronger Then I’d get my fix as you granted my wish When the euphoria faded Reality smacked me in the face I saw that I was becoming A different person in a different place I didn’t like that person so much I didn’t recognize who she was All I knew was I wanted more Of that illustrious, glorious buzz The more I got, the more I craved To be whatever you wanted This ensured you’d never leave me But it left my spirit haunted Deep within me the yelling began “You are beginning to disappear!!” I attempted to ignore and disregard it As I tried to fight back my tears I can’t have you and still have me The realization is coming clear I must protect what of me I have left I just can’t live with so much fear I’ll never be right without you My heart will never be the same I’m lost in this sea of sadness Every time I speak your name So now I begin the journey Of purging you from my soul This detoxification will take some time And the process leaves me cold Your crack will be the death of me It’s killing me I know And that is why I must say goodbye Even though I still love you so 2007 |