UNDERSTANDING

at first i didnt get it
how you could move on so fast
without taking one look back
but today it finally clicked and all made sense

you always loved her but put me in her place
now that im gone and shes back
its not a facade anymore

what was so real to me
was a dream world to you
everytime you looked at me you saw her smile

my blonde hair suddenly turned brown
my height grew taller than I
my face morphed into hers
and I finally understood why

you just got up and moved on
but it was so easy because you never left
the place was all to common
and the life we shared was a lie

it hurts more than I could imagine
to finally realize
my eyes are now open
and they wont ever shut again

what was so real to me
was a dream world to you
everytime you looked at me you saw her smile

my blonde hair suddenly turned brown
my height grew taller than I
my face morphed into hers
and I finally understood why


its a horrible feeling what I have realized
thinking I have love but having it so easily
slip through my fingers
I do realize but still have trouble accepting
how can you look into my face but not see me?
how can you sleep next to me every night
but always dream of her?

3 years is to long to lie
dreams last forever though
expecially when you pretend
I dont expect you to care now
but please know this suffocating feeling wont leave me
falling deeper
consumption is drownding me
should I fight it?
or live in a dream world too?
maybe if I close my eyes long enough
I can preted you loved me all those years
but I cant, I cant be fake

it hurts more than I could imagine
to finally realize
my eyes are now open
and they wont ever shut again
the bridge is finally burnt
with this fresh understanding