Than this

I could be more confused than this
I could've run
And again I'd missed
A chance to understand
Your reasons

I could be more stupid than him
I could've lost
All I trully am
Ignored every cost
Again

I could be more blind
I could've chosen not
To see
The mess that has become
me

I could be more lost than this
I could've gone back
For one last kiss
And let the memories brand
Making me understand
All I'm gonna miss
I know I could be...more broken than this.