a depressing moment

i sit at the end of the bath looking up at the water puring out of the shower head.
i imagine maggots and worms flowing trough the water, eating away at my soul.
you did this to me! you know you did this to me but you never listen.
i sit on my bed watching the blood drip from my wrists it is sick, i know but it is also healing.
when did you ever listen to me dad? do you care? you sent me away to this shithole and expect me to survive.
your an abusive person and i hate you for what you did, i am a human being with a soul i am not a dog.
you blamed me for your mistakes didn't you dad... i am your mistake father! when i die just remember that those were the words you told me.
i am now worthless a piece of meat sitting in a cold room with i knife through my heart! YOU DID THIS TO ME!