I Can't...

I can't give up on him, I can't…

Days go by
And I still wonder…why?
Why can't I
Leave him alone,
Or why can't I
Grab him close
And never let him go?

I'm tired.
I want this story to come to an end.
He's driving me crazy; I can't take it anymore,
But I still can't give up on him, I can't.
I'm stuck between my heart and mind,
My feelings are too mixed and complicated for me to understand,
I don't know whether to cry or to smile
Or whether I want to live or to die.

I feel so helpless,
I feel so useless.
And I can't give up on him, I can't,
And this story will never come to an end.
I keep wishing for something to happen,
I keep hoping that some day
He'll come to me and say:
"Hey, you know what?
I feel the same way"
But that day never seems to come.

And now I feel so numb,
I'm afraid of what I have become,
I can't smile like I used to,
I feel guilty,
I feel bad,
I feel so sad…

But I still can't give up on him, I can't,
Because my mind fills up with memories that keep me alive,
And a little light fills me up inside
Every time I think that maybe
He'll notice me, and maybe
He'll be the one that will save me
Even though now he's the one that causes pain,
Even though he's the reason why the clouds above me are so full of rain.
But I keep hoping that this rain
Will also be the one that will wash away my pain
As soon as he says what's on his mind,
As soon as he tells me how he feels inside.
So, I guess I'll never give up on him.

I can't!
I won't!
Because my feelings are stronger than my mind,
Love is indeed blind;
Because my heart is bigger than the pain,
And he might be the one to summon up the rain
That could wash away my pain;
Because I love him too much to let him go,
I can't leave him alone…

I can't give up on him, I can't…