Poetry about struggling with addiction. |
Heroin Chic Under the Influence Alone in my Room Questioning my Sanity no respect for myself looking at what I've become Is that really my reflection? Pale Dark Circles Under my hollow-glazed eyes Shaking Uncontrollably Track Marks up and down my Arms I've picked my poison well It's simple Just a Needle to the Vein I'm a picture perfect Junkie Addict I lie awake at night Trying to win the fight Against the one thing that holds me so tight Craving for that one little drop To be in my arms again saying, "Yes, I am your friend." I know it is leading me down a destructive path The devil deep within likes to point and laugh While the angel twiddles her thumbs Knowing there is nothing she can do I need the strength and comfort it gives I am addicted Lush.....us...or NOT tequila makes you feel like the life of the PARTY till the next morning throbbing head no recollection of the night before intertwined with legs and sheets it's a puzzle with mis-matched pieces never meant to be put back together was it all worth it? for one supposed night of fun... Monster The pretty crystallized powder Calling my name Urging me to do more Just one more line Soon becomes nine My heart is racing Obsessively grinding my teeth The taste running down my throat How much more can I take? The bag slowly starts to deplinish I need more I feel so alive I want to stay up Up here forever With my head above the clouds Slowly I start to fall I feel myself crashing Quicker than expected Licking the bag Praying to get some minor sensation Nothing Slightly Shaking Craving more Knowing I shouldn't give in But all it takes is One phone call I am pathetic Seeing the monster This powder has created Bottom of the Bottle The bottle is calling me To drown my sorrows Give into the temptation I know I shouldn't I said I would stop I'm torn in two Wanting what I shouldn't have I have a problem But I'm scared to get help No other solution To cure this pain That has been dealt The bottles next call Could be my last So would you help Before I become Someone of the past Sobriety I can't live like this anymore Being just some junkie whore It's time to change But old habits are the hardest to break My sobriety the past few days was fake Could you tell? I realize now that I have created this hell To run away from pictures of the past It has got to stop Resorting to substances to escape my lonely solitude What you said last night was rude That I would never change That I couldn't do it alone I quickly hung up the phone I will prove you wrong I'll take life's punches as they come Quit burying them deep and Hiding behind a veil of Smoke, Powder, Pills, and Hate My life of sobriety Awaits |