Behind Closed Doors

I look into his eyes

He looks away

Chugs his beer

The bottle breaks against the wall

I shudder knowing what's to come

Alcohol taking over his actions

I head for the door

He grabs my arm and pulls me back

Laughs and says, "Where ya going babe?"

"Obviously nowhere," is my response

He kisses my neck, "That's my good girl"

I push him away

"What you don't want me?"

"You're drunk"

He slams me against the wall

Punches me across the face

The taste of blood in my mouth

"Baby please don't do this"

He laughs, "Get on your knees"

Choking

Pushing against him

Grabs my wrists

Against the wall

My head hits it hard

I pull my knees to my chest

"I'm not done with you…..so you better not move!"

Shaking

Wishing I could disappear

I stand up

The room spins

Finally it stops

I go downstairs to get a drink

His hands grasp my waist

Whispers in my ear, "I told you not to move"

"I'm sorry….just wanted something to drink"

He picks me up

Throws me over his shoulder

"I said I wasn't done with you yet"

He slams me down on his bed

Pulls my jeans off

Holding my wrists above my head

He pushes in

I scream "NO"

I try to fight him

He punches me multiple times

Continues his rampage against my body

Tears streaming down my face

He slows down and pulls out

Smiles and says, "I love you, babe"

He leaves

I get up and pull myself together

Knowing if I stay the cycle will continue

My heart breaking

A part of me loves him

But I'm tired of being scared, used, and bruised

The makeup only covers so much

The pain inside is too hard to take

I look him in the eyes

"I'm done"

I open the door and close it for good

Never to return to that nightmare again……