Unwanted

    She stared at herself in the mirror.It was late in the evening just after her shift in the hospital.It was a part time job to support her college tuition.Unlike all her friends they were on vacation maybe to Paris,Hawaii and so on.She love her part time job that she even applied for nursing.However, today she lost one of her patient..not that they knew each other very long.She was a brave little girl with big  brown eyes.These eyes were always smiling and they are like telling her that everyday is a new day.
    Faith was her best friend.Both Ashley and Faith only knew each other last month.So far,after being on earth for 20 years,she never met anyone that she can call as best friends.Everyone to Ashley are just friends.Faith was different.She is only 12 years old and they became best friends.It broke her heart when she went to Faith's room and saw all the bed were made and all the equipments were gone.She knew that Faith have left her and Earth.Faith was a patient in the cancer ward.Her cancer was really bad and according to the other nurse she sliped into a coma after Ashley went home and dided an hour later.
    Now, still standing infront of the mirror Ashley started to cry.She can accept that Faith is gone but what she can not accept is that she is the lonliest person alive.Her family were falling apart since she was 5.Her parents divorce,her mother marries twice and her father is in jail.Now that her stepfather was in control, Ashley was more to a servant.She became the mother to her twin sisters Kaylie and Cloe.Everyone at home is afraid of the stepfather and they live in fear.Live at home is not easy and she wished that somehow that she can turn back time where everyone is happy and secure.
    Reflecting from friendship are just friends.Her buddies that she use to hang around with are all gone.They left her in disappointment.There are times they gang up on her and just criticise her and that is why Ashley did not categorised them as best friends.She comforms that even if she die no one would cry.She is still single and that is depressing especially passing lovers walking hand in hand.All these made her think that she is the loneliest person alive and maybe she is.She is only waiting for Mr Right but he is never here.Does he eve exist?She doubted.
    Taking the razor blade from the cupboard, once again she looked in the mirror.Tears streaming down her soft cheeks.These cheeks,face and her everything do not mean anything anymore.She is alone."I am alone and i hate myself", she sobbed.She took the blade and pressed it against her wrist and it felt good.She feel as if all her loneliness fades away just like the blood that is oozing from the cut.She made a few more digging the blades deeper in because she wanted to end it all.She was unwanted in this world.That was what everyone made her feel.Unwanted!!!