Dream Notes

I had one of those trap dreams again.....My head hurts worse than any of before. Why is this happening to me? I saw it this time, the form that was after me. He was as tall as the ceiling. As dark as night, but I could see him in the pitch. He wore an overcoat. I could feel him watching me. I looked at his face and saw no eyes. In the earlier dreams I could not even speak. I whispered.....? No. When I screamed for help nothing came out. In my other dreams I could not move. I could not get up, but I could move my left arm. There was more than just him. (I think it's a man. It feels so.) A child the color of a candle flame. The figure was gone, but I was still complexed in the childs presence. Now convulsing and having no control of my body. I could not tell if the child was a boy or a girl, but I could feel the love of my little sister form it. It tried, but could not figure out what was happening to me....It kept asking, "Valkorin?"

Then a shadowed beast. I did not know the beast, but he was my friend. The beast was sad for me.

I am scared...These dreams are so realistic. They frighten me. If it is only a dream, then why after all these years does it still haunt me? All other nightmares are different, but not this one. always the same but always changing....It was a bit different this time. I saw him and "He" saw me. Why doesn't "He" hurt me? I feel his "Hate". I don't know who "He" is. Is "He" real?? Am I going insane? My mind seriously aches...Does my fear of not knowing have something to do with this? If it does I can not be scared. I have to sleep, but what if I get trapped? What if "He" catches me?

Once again I have noone to trust. "They" will believe I am brainsick. Am I? I need help....I all ways thought my self imaginitive. Why would my mind make something so Horrid? I Hate it....I don't want to say this, but I don't know. What if, I don't know?? I think I may have pinpointed my dilema, but I just don't know.

THE END

Or is it........................??