One Way Route

It was only once,
It was far from my truth
The day was now evening,
My hands were soaked through

I ran down the alleys,
And through gardens too,
My paranoia hits me
As my mind runs through

My heart beats faster
my finite drum
I wander within myself
What have I done?

I open the door
To this familiar place
She looks at me knowingly
She knows my face

I cry in her arms
and confess to my sins
But she can't accept
She won't let me in

I tell of the story
A short rendition of my truth
But thats what confuses me
Because I have no proof

No proof of my innocence
No proof of my worth
No one accepts me
No one on Earth

I want to float far away
Rise high into the air
free from my constraints,
my poverty, my care

But this is the real world
I gotta take it on the chin
I've got to admit to it
this is the one deadly sin

I fall to the floor
As my knees hit the ground
They grab my arms
I needn't speak a sound

It's all over now
I'm in this cage for good
No questions asked
No answers need be understood

Fify-five years and counting
Until I leave this cell
I should never have killed my child
This is my only true hell