Thoughts of someone who doesn't care

Everything that started out was hate
What did you think would happen? Everything would turn out great?
All the while you thought I was being honest and fair
I don’t know if ever gave a care
You treated me great and with respect
I’m hated and not a notable character what did you expect?
Yeah, I used you if you want to look at it like that
I was just going with it, I just pulled stuff out of my hat
It’s not everyday that people don’t give me a second stare
People think I’m mean, untrustworthy, and there are some I even scare
I lie and hurt people that’s just what I do
If someone ever talks to me it’s just to say “**** you!”
I have nothing to give and have no sorrow it’s just who I am
Can’t believe you thought I’d change when I was just blowing smoke, it was all a scam
I’m worthless and I’m scum
I’m a lowlife, I reap criticism, and yeah, you could even say that I am a bum
I want you to hate me for what I’ve done and besides that’s what everyone else does
I’ve never had any values or morals, what kind of person did you think I was?
What do you want me to do? Say I’m sorry and let out a forgiving sigh?
Ha, sorry, I’m not that kind of guy! Would you actually want me to live in that lie?
Here are some last words before I go
Just a few more things I want you to know
I think you’re an idiot for trusting in me
Honestly now, when you tried to look deep inside what did you think you’d see?