I only show this when nobody's around

I only show this when nobody's around

I can only take one thing at a time
and even sometimes thats to much
i can only breathe at night
ive never felt a bloodless rush

and you tell me that im alright
but im not cuz you can't see
what ive done to me

My release is my problem
it hurts that i can't see it
anything will do at the time
just as long as i can scar

you just keep your eyes closed
im hidden under long sleeves
hide the things you'll never know
see the beast eating at me

im addicted  im unwanted
im helpless im addicted
please help me