Fathers Pain

i know i wasnt there for you in your early years, an im not good at showin emotion so this is how ima shed my

tears

you dont know how sooy i am i missed your first steps
i know they told me not to but i live this life with so many regrets
been in an out of your life so much you wonder if im real
you shouldnt think those thoughts, thats no way for a child to feel
i missed your first words an you makin your first real sounds
now your speakin full sentences askin why daddys not around
been so long since ive seen you an youve grown so much
got me wonderin if you still remember your daddy's touch

(chorus)
i understand if you dont ever wanna see your daddy again
i promise me not bein there was never part of my plan
if its possible could you please forgive me for our time apart
it may be hard to believe, but i love you with all my heart
(chorus)

it hurts me so much to see the bond that you an mommy got
when you look at me with those questioning eyes, feels like in my heart i been shot
your getting older an starting to understand a little more an more
askin mommy why i stopped comin knockin at your door
i promise you that its nothing that my little princess did
one day ill explain it but for now just relax an be a kid
as you grow up you'll get a better picture of the world
but no matter how big you get, you'll always be daddys little girl

(chorus)

from the moment you were born you changed my thought pattern
for the first time in my life i felt my future actually mattered
but i lost sight of my goals an where i was sposed to be
walked right out of your life like my father did to me
i know that im gonna have to work hard to gain your trust again
havin to deal with the fact that your patience will eventually run thin
remember nothing would hurt me more than hearin 'daddy i dont want you in my life'
please dont deprive me of walkin you down the aisle an seein you become a wife.