On fire

I'm on fire,
without you forgiving.
Please now my dear i only want to go home,
and have a good day.
These accidents seem to show your misery,
prove your broken heart can be sacrificed.
Can't you see what you are inflicting,
in the pain of the moment,
all i want is to know you're there,
that you care.
Darling if you wake up one day,
and see something is missing.
Will you not question the consequenses?
Wonder if you've left for a reason
that anyone will care about?

And everything seems to be going your way,
all the dreams and missing things.
Wonder if you'll give some of that back to me.
Cos i need to pick up the pieces,
before my broken ego sleeps without dreaming.
I wish I knew if you cared,
but it seems I am all alone.
Lost and scared.
These accidents had a purpose,
these starry skies and long nights.
I know now they were just so you could learn,
how to play croquet.
You wouldn't cry if I stopped breathing,
you wouldn't line them up for questioning if i started screaming.
You used to be the one I could trust,
but now I know you forgot me long ago.
You left me to hang out with all your good friends.
Leaving me to look over my cold shoulder,
wondering if you'd ever invite me home again.

All i used to know,
has been rearanged and changed
to a style that suits you.
So that you could rub it in my face,
that I could never come home again.
So you could set me alight,
in a fire of guilt and remorse.
Wondering if I ever did anything right.
If those bad days were my fault all along.
If the importance of my being,
went ignored.
Because I'm alone,
not wanted
missing the tears I know now I'm not allowed to cry.

If I bleed,
I know that you won't care.
If I leave,
I know that you won't blink at my sacrifice.
Because to be forgiven is impossible.
To be living is a crime against humanity.
Where the shattered glass of all reasoning,
lies strayed across your garden.
Ready for you to make up the rules.