I Find Myself Here

I find myself feeling torn because I
Feel like I'm betraying everyone
Yet I feel like I've been betrayed all along

I find myself upset because I
Fear I’ve lost something I can’t replace
And I doubt if I even held it once.

I find myself exhausted, I’m
Tired of feeling all of these emotions,
Constantly jolted from one to the next.

I find myself in a state of anxiety, I
Don’t know if I’ll escape this circle
I’m so tired of going through the motions

I find myself in the middle I’ve
Been swapping sides for some time
I feel like the biggest villain of them all

I find myself here and yet I
Don’t even know where here is
I can't make any sense of it all