Trouble Sleeping

I wake with the night light resting on my bed
The light must have crept in through the gap in the curtains
My heart is calling out for you
My arms just wanna feel you in them
Tears are falling down my face
as if it was rain trinkling down a window

Maybe my questions of why you really left me
will always remain unanswered
You've embedded your place firmly in my head
but most definitely in my heart.

I wanted to hold you and keep you safe from harm
looking back now when you pulled away it wasn't cause you didn't want to be held it was that you didn't want me to be the one keeping you safe.

I'm trying not to love you anymore
but its hard when my heart won't do what my head is telling it.
the nights i've lay awake knowing that someone else is holding you
and all i'm holding into is a memory of me and you.

I'm hating myself cause i'm not over you yet
and truthfully I really wanna be!
I blame love for exsisting, When its myself i should balme for falling in love
I'm angry with you for allowing me to fall for you so hard when you knew all along that you were going to break my heart.

You have me so afraid to love another and i think you secretly enjoy it cause then its like you still have control over me.

While you still think that
i'll contuine to have trouble sleeping