i wish i was emotionless

you see this smile its just for decoration
you think i'm happy but youre seriously mistaken
things have changed but there still the same
i can still feel this pain
sick of trying to erase the past
when these painfull memories still last
youve left a deep scar
on my poor little broken heart

how does it feel to know
that i have let go
of all the lies and deciet
but why cant you just admit defeat
so many years i've lost
now my heart is as cold as frost

in the security of the dark night
all these emotions i'm trying to fight
and i know you dont deserve my tears
but i'ts you who has invoked all of these fears
i try so hard to declare
that i just dont carebut deep inside i know that i do
and all i can do is hate you

now i'm searching deep inside my soul
for the emotions that you stole
now I'm afraid of love
and I'm praying to the stars above
that it wont always be this way
hoping for the day
when love willl come without hate
is this my destiny my fate?

i still flinch when a fist is raised
when a scream is made
i'm afraid those memories will never fade
and when i think of you
even though i hate to
i let a tear fall down my cheek
and i realise i am truly week

but you are the one who is all alone
no place to call home sweet home
this is youre punishment
the final judjement
for youre crime
you wil pay the time
going crazy in youre own mind

i dont care if youre alive or dead
i just wish i could get you out of my head
because i'm searching deep inside my sole
for the emotions that you stole
but thats all you can do is steal
mabye its a good thing i hate to feel