how it happens

As he squeezes the last breathe out of me
And crumbles my last hope of a happy ending
I grown weak, knowing there is no chance,
No ways to make everything seem right
I bled for him, I cried for him, I tried for him
I have no reason to attribute any happiness
To myself, because he was my happiness
My light at the end of the tunnel!
As it dims to an unrecognizable flicker of yellow
And my life ends ubruptly
I own up to my fuckups
I told you it was true and you told me it was love
But now I'm left calling "your bluff"
They said I couldn't know it was love
I said they don't know how I feel
You were and still are all that is right in me
They tell me you are killing me, they must be right
I fall to the bathroom floor in tears
I aimed to make you ahpppy, I'm not good enough for you
I'm ashamed that I let it happen like this
If I hadn't of been so dumb
I tell myself it was a two-way street
It wasn't, you broke my heart
And nobody will pick up the pieces
I loved you then, I love you now, Forever will
But it doesn't matter now, You have her
So I will be left heartbroken in my heap of mess on the floor!