No Place Left on Earth for Me to Hide

Oh God, the everlasting woes and the wondering
My heart cannot escape this torment and blundering
I look deep into my soul to find the man that I am
But I am not for you are the one and only I AM
This woman was the first to have my heart in hers
To be with her was not just my plan, I thought it was yours
Through every action I take and every word I speak
Help me in this endeavor for I am ever too weak
No peace of mind, just restlessness and anxiety
I feel like have no more fight left in me
The truth of the matter is, I never did let her go
She has always had my heart, she just doesn’t know
But I have forsaken my heart and given my vow to another
A black cloud hanging over me, then you, you just seem farther
As you disappear into the distance, tears pour on me from that cloud
Soaking, I am sorry to say I live this life, of which I used to be proud
But the loud thundering in sky and the lighting strikes on the ground next to me are too much to handle
They have turned my life into a pool of hopelessness and sorrow; they put out my once so vibrant candle
So Father, give me grace and wisdom beyond my worth and beyond my years
Find me a relief from the everlasting grief, and dry up these somber tears
Tell me Jesus, can I ever hold her in my arms again
Please answer my prayer Lord, in your name, Amen.