Confession

You think I'm telling bullshit, and that I really like it..
Do not try to dare me, you shouldn't be so care-free..
You should pay attention, before you make your preconceptions..
And I can't stand it..
And I didn't wanted to hurt you, but he wanted to..
This is not me, but you can't see, welcome to my life as a schizofreen!!

Confusion, Illusions,
This thing that is inside of me, you all can't see..
This is his voice, I don't have a choice..
And I just don't wanna be!
You can tell him what you feel, you're feelings aren't real..
All my hopes destroyed, all I love ignored..
He just doesn't care..

This thing that feeds from me, isn't what I wan't to be..
This monster isn't right, the fear that I must fight..
This vision isn't real, I am just his meal..
And I can't get a hold, and I'm so fucking cold..
And I just want to be you and your actions, to believe into the newest preconceptions..
But the future's not for me, in your society, this isn't what my life should be!

Confusion, Illusions,
This thing that is inside of me, you all can't see..
This is his voice, I don't have a choice..
And I just don't wanna be!
You can tell him what you feel, you're feelings aren't real..
All my hopes destroyed, all I love ignored..
He just doesn't care..

And he does what he please, he's just my disease, he is still fighting with me, I don't want him to be, but he is breaking down on me, there is nothing for real, he doesn't care how I feel, he is living inside of me!

By Soad3131, Amstelveen, The Netherlands