Mother

I close my eyes and breathe in the air,
The salty tanginess comforts me.
I spread my arms and fling my head back,
The wind feels heavenly on me.
I hear the crashing of the waves,
I hear the cackles of sea gulls; I hear the roar of the wind around me and think,
Now my heart feels full.


Then suddenly I feel sadness overwhelm me,
Oh lord, why did you leave me?
You were my life line since I was born,
You were always with me.
I feel so bereft standing here without you.
This was our special place, do you remember?
This was where we had made our pact,
To never leave each other.


I scream out loud and it is filled with anguish,
How could you do this to me?
I loved you so very much, like no other,
This wound doesn’t ever seem to heal.

A small voice whisper behind me, “Mother?”
And I turn to face my daughter,
So young, so small, she’s just like you,
Now I know, I can’t leave her.


I open my arms she comes to me,
I enfold her in my warm embrace,
She looks me in the eye and whisper,
“I’ll be there for you, for ever.”

I look at my daughter and tell her softly,
“We’ll never leave each other, never,”
And yet I know in my hear the truth,
That no matter how strong maternal love is,
Death will still find you.


Funny, what I promised my daughter,
I know one day, death shall tear us apart,
I hope then she remembers my words and move on,
Just like how I’m going to, but I find it so hard.


Goodbye mother, farewell my heart,
I wish you eternal bliss,
even up there I know you care,
Now there’s nothing a miss.


The sun is shining, the birds are chirping,
The sea is gently lapping the shore,
I close my eyes and keep breathing,
I feel blessed to the core.


I move forward, chin held high,
My lips set in a firm line,
And then I hear, “You’ll be fine my angel,”
And then, I finally smile.