My Reflection

[written March 31, 2005]

Close my eyes and dream...

The soothing light flickers off the water.
I rest my face on the rail, on my folded arms--
see my reflection in the rippling water.

For once I feel peaceful;
For once I match my surroundings.
The water of my soul will not stay calm.
It will not obey my wishes.

A tempest of emotion, of fire and quaking,
but I will rest while the moment allows.

When all is quiet, when all is right...
a thousand memories of love--
from You, from others--
they fill my heart;
times when a glimpse of You was given.

I had not the eyes to recognize--
I had not the heart to be thankful--
just a child inside, basking in the moment
and unaware of the big picture.