Even If I Don't Remember (Hate Me)

Even If I Don't Remember (aka Hate Me)(Lyrics by Blue October, "Hate Me")

Hate me today,
Hate me tomorrow,
Hate me like it never mattered.
Hate me because of what I've done (-or didn't do)
Just show me that I've done wrong.
Hate me so I can see what's been true all along.
Hate me so I can finally realize,
That maybe it's not all it's cracked up to be.

Please show me,
-if by chance you wouldn't mind-
How to find myself again,
How to come tripping back,
Headache- and heartache.
Teach me to fight my own battles,
Since apparently we've only won a fight,
-not the war.

Tell me my wrongs,
And show me redepmtion.
For right now, neither seem attainable.
Tell me it's not just me,
But the world at fault,
-though we both know it's just a lie.

Tell me the reason,
For all of this silence.
Why was it taken over so?
Tell me the score.
Are you winning, or am I?

Show me the world,
For apparently I know nothing.
Show me the fate,
It's had since it can remember.
Show me the truth,
'Cause right here, it's all lies.

What was the reason,
You had chosen that action?
What was the point,
Of no return?
Why did we end up,
On this road we keep traveling?
-like a never-ending, looping tale.

So yeah, hate me.
Hate me for what I've done.
What I chose to do,
Chose to follow through with.
Hate me so you can finally understand.

Live out your life,
Like I would have mine,
If you had never intervened.
Continue on, like a soap opera saga,
Never finished but never beginning,
Anything new.

And if by chance,
Our paths should cross,
I'll live the moment with hope in my heart,
That you'll forgive me,
For whatever I've done,
-even if I don't remember.