What Do I Do?

Sitting here thinking of you and thinking of me
Thinking of all of those little things
Like the water balloon fights and the swimming pool parties
The after-dark sneak outs just so we weren't apart
Everything that we did then was so much fun and filled with meaning
But when I see you now, I think why did I ever believe you?
I tell myself that it wasn't my fault, that the blame belongs to you
And deep down inside it hurts me even more because I know it's true
I know though inside all of this pain and under all the heart ache
That even after everything you put me through, I would do anything for you
I would take a bullet, I would take a knife
I would loose my friends, I would take my life
I can't stand seeing you happy because I know I really have lost
I can't stand seeing you suffer because I know that it's my fault
What do you propose I do
When everything I think about and everything I do
When my whole entire life revolves solely around you.