*~ Your Eyes Are What Gave You Away ~*

*~ Your Eyes Are What Gave You Away ~*

You say, you love me,
You say, you want to know me,
You say, you want to be with me,
You say, you want me to let you in,
You say a lot of things.

You have already had your chance,
Now, you want to make amends?
It is too late for I'm sorry.
There is no way past this.
No turning backwards the fate's hands of time .

I almost fell for it again,
That final time in the car together,
But at the last minute,
I detected them.

Your lies you have told me...
I saw through your acting.

The look on your face when I had to leave,
It was as if you were about to shed tears,
But, underneath everything,
The mask you wear,
You were not hurt in the least.

How could I have never seen it before?
I was so naive.
That same look on your face,
The everlasting one you have used before.
I always fell for it,
But not this time!

This time, I finally saw it,
In your eyes,
It was always there.
The truth of it all.

I saw the real you.

Do not pretend anymore.
You say you love me,
But you drank me away,
Forgetting.

You say things that are not true,
You lie to me and say,
'I love you.'

Do you even know what those words mean?

Where were you when my whole life changed?
Oh, Yeah.
Drinking,
Abusing,
Yelling,
and
Lying.

Where were you when I needed you the most?
Oh, wait,
I forgot!
I never needed you!
I am stronger than you believed.

I got through life's hardships, just fine, thank you,
See, I turned out better than you could have dreamed.
But all this anger & sadness deep inside of me,
All came from you.

Do not blame him,
It is not his fault.
But yours.
All he ever did was love me.
You?
You saw me as a burden.

He never forgot about me.
Never drank me away.
Never yelled at me.
Never left me.
   
I do not think you ever truly loved me.
For who I am.
My persona.
Me.

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