Misunderstanding

How easy is it for me to become misundertsood? I suppose its a matter of the sanity or lack there of in someones membrane. It's weird... because I am so easily misunderstood and I can never see it coming... yet I am always mistaken for the same image ! Perhaps its my own perception of myself that is classicaly distorted! Perhaps I am not the perosn I think I see in the mirror every morning. It is really a different image in the morning then at night. I don't know if it's the light that has touched my skin and mind that changes it in the eve... but I suppose this is a mystery that I will never really figure out! Honestly though, do we every really ever know anything for sure? That brings me back to my original thought that manifested from a crazy dream last night. What are we ever really sure of? Sometimes I feel a feeling that I am so damn sure of at that point in time... only to be rendored wrong in the end. For example.... the love and sexual pleasure that I am surrounded with in the midst of lesbian sexual intercourse with my girlfriend at 2 am. It is those moments when I really feel secure about our relationship... as dysfunctional as it may be. But as soon as that high fizzles out or at least cools down... I am back to feeling as though I will never really know if her love for me is pure! Or the moments when a bride and groom is over the alter staring...glaring into one anothers eyes... feeling this sense of glee and excitment to begin their lives together in holy matramony! The feeling that lasts all of 6 months until one of them is caught screwing their neighbor closest to them on the left-hand side! What I am really getting at with this.... as pessimistic as it may sound... is that I am never really sure of anything out of my own hands. LIke at this very moment... I am sure of the love I feel for my girl... But that is all. And who knows if it is momentary or eternal! *Huff*