Determined Solitude

Determined solitude
I sit on the floor
Of painful afterthought
Regrets?
Yes, I have some
Hope?
Yes, I need some
Laughter?
Yes, I wish I had some
But the crashing happiness
Of the outer world
Restrains my heat of passion
I bleed for you
As the tears threaten to fall
I paainstakenly carve
A statue of guilt
Yet the colors run together
So the blur obscurs the view
I seep up the shreds of
A life I once knew
I'm enclosed in a mocha cacoon
Waiting for my new life to begin
Yet I seem to remain in my
Determined solitude