When?

Why? Why Lord? Why do I have to keep learning, keep waiting....
for my true Prince? You know my heart...
You know my deepest desires....
You know I am built for romance, affection,
so Why Lord, Why do I have to suffer..
all alone, all alone.....
So many tries...to connect with that other spirit and soul
That is only meant for mine.
What is it for?
What do I need to know...
that I do not yet know?
Is it that while I am waiting, you draw me closer to you Lord?
Are you to be my husband indefinitely?
Is that my fate?
To just be here....alone....
For other people's welfare?
Not my own?
Lord, oh Lord, I know you desire the best for me
so Why? so Why? is it not to be?