~Now And Forever~Chapter 2:Bittersweet

The next day I had alot on my mind.How could Rj not like me?How could he choose her over me?I've known him longer,I've been there for him.Sigh,i thought,as long as it makes him happy.Afterschool,Rj and I planned a hang out on Saturday.Just me,him,and yoona.It still hurt me,the way he talked about her.Like they were meant to be together,like he couldn't love anyone else as much.I had to stop myself from crying.I had to stop myself from saying,how could you love her?!What has she done for you.Don't you love me too?I had to block out all of what he said about her.Eventually we were done,and the meeting place was set.As soon as i got home,i text yoona.I had to ask.I just had to ask her.If she doesn't like him too,i thought.Just maybe,he'll be with me.He'll be mine again.It was hard for me to compose and send that message to her.But it was even harder for me to wait for her reply.Finally i got the reply,I closed my eyes,as my cellphone started to ring.When it had finished i opened the message."Yes,I do like him.haha.Why do you ask?"that was her reply.I started to cry.I cried so hard i couldn't hear any other noise in the world at that moment.All i saw was my tears.All i felt was my pain.It felt like my heart was literally breaking.When i woke up,it was Saturday.The day for me to put on a masquerade.A masquerade of happiness,a masquerade of smiles. While my tears were still drying,stained on the pillow.I changed my clothes,and headed to the mall.Yoona and Rj were already there waiting for me."Hey,"Rj said with his regular Rj-ish smile.How can you smile?You bastard.You have no idea how much pain you put me through."hey,"I said with a little trace of sadness in my voice."Are you okay?"asked yoona with her usual amount of concern."oh i'm fine,"i smiled sweetly at her.I hate you.I hate you and i hate him.He betrayed me,and you,i'm just sick of you.Always saying you're not pretty.You useless piece of-"Lets watch a movie,"my thoughts had been interrupted by rj's voice."Let's watch a horror one,"He finished his sentence."Oh i don't know,"Yoona said with her shy voice,"I don't really like watching those in theathers."Yeah i bet you don't.Because its like looking in the mirror.I hate you.I hate you so much.Why does he like you?I see nothing in you.You are nothing but a-"What do you think sara?"My thoughts were once again interrupted by the sound of rj's voice."Oh,anything's fine with me."I smiled sweetly again.I hate you so much rj.I can't believe I ever loved you.You're a backstabber.You're a useless backstabber.By the time i had finished my "I hate you" rantings in my mind,we were in the movie theather watching a comedy movie.Look at them.I thought.Look at how perfect those two bastards look together.I decided not to let their lovefest ruin the greatness of the movie.But i couldn't resist.30 minutes later i looked back over.Oh my god.His arm is around her.And she's leaning on him?!No fuckin way.I started laughing to myself.Not at the movie,but at the fact that i was that concerned with what they were doing.When the movie was over,we went to the karaoke room.I went first,and picked the song,"Predictable".Then yoona went,and picked the song,"Kiss Me".Rj went last and picked the song,"I'm A Loser Baby So Why Don't You kill me".Well thats what I heard him singing.As soon as the "good times" were over,we went outside the mall.And looked at the stars."Wow,its so beautiful.."Yoona said as she looked on with amazement."yeah you are,"Rj said and leaned in for a kiss.Did he just kiss her?!Okay.Fuck this.I'm going home.I got up just slowly enough,to watch yoona respond to the kiss."I'm sorry,I can't,"Yoona was kinda stuttering.I had never heard her stutter before.EVER."I'm sorry,"she said again,"just not right now."She picked up her purse,and ran away.At least now i knew that if something happened she could go get help.She was running top speed."yoona wait!"Rj screamed after her.But she was long gone.Oh wow.This is great.I was about to laugh in Rj's face,and do the "you should've picked me"dance,but i couldn't.He just looked so sad.I had to help him."its okay."I helped him stand up,and brush the dirt off his shirt."i'll ask her why she's not ready yet,and it'll be alright okay?I promise."I gave him a genuine sweet smile.And he smiled back.For once he really needed me.That was the best i had felt with him all year.That was the best kiss of my life.