My Little Angel in Heaven

I was so looking forward
To seeing your sweet little face
Yet you were taken from me
I'm filled with shame and disgrace.
For the longest time I've blamed myself
Felt I was the reason for your depart
Now once a year a pain comes over me
As thoughts of you fill my mind and heart.
I am your mommy and wish you were still here
I never imagined I could miss you so
I guess heaven just couldn't wait
So I lost the opportunity to watch my baby grow.
Now each year around the time of your depart
Into a deep state of depression I make a desent
To a place that's silent and I'm all alone
So I can think of my angel that to heaven was sent.
My little angel in heaven, know that mommy's still here
And thoughts of you are always in my mind
I just push on through each day trying to smile
Hoping to see you another place and time.